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7.23.2009

Overwhelmed Complaining

I'm feeling a little overwhelmed at the moment. I'm down to one week or I have to give a 60 day notice that I'll be finding somewhere else to live. I have struck out 3 times with finding a roommate. I get my hopes up and they are yanked out from under me. I do have a back up plan, but it's a little expensive. Just when I've gotten all my financials under control this crap happens. I feel like it's never going to be okay. I know in the end, it will be and it's what God intended, but still. It's hard right now. I know I'll grow and learn and all that jazz, but for once I want something easy. I know supposedly you take for granted the easy stuff in life, but lately I think I'd cherish easy right now. I want just one thing going on in my life to work out. I feel like all I've done the past 2-3 days is cry. It's not just the housing issues, there's other stuff going on that I just wish would work out. I pray that it works out. It's the one thing in my life that I KNOW is good. I know overcoming the obstacles in the path will make it stronger but I just want it to be okay now. My job sucks. I keep trying to find something, but this economy sucks. I know whoa is me, I have a job when a lot of people don't and would be grateful. I am grateful I have a job, don't get me wrong, I just wish it was challenging. Standing in front of the store and greeting people is not a job for a college graduate! I wish I had the start up money for my event company. I started a savings account and I was going to save up for it, but that's all going to housing now. How do people do it? I just feel like I'm drowning. 

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